Women
are an emotional breed. Generally, our actions are dictated by our
emotions. Thankfully, we also have common sense to guide us, as our
emotions often lend themselves to us making some downright stupid
mistakes. But what happens when we allow our emotions to cloud our
judgement, to overshadow the most basic instinct that any woman should
possess, which is to protect herself and her children at all costs? What
happens then? Why do we, as women, allow ourselves to participate in
what, in effect, amounts to a three-ring circus with a man that refuses
to be loyal to us? When you are pulling for your man in the tug-of-war
of love, and the side chick is pulling in the other direction, when do
you let go?
Let's get this out of the way. If you are
the type of chick that will tell a man that "you have to choose", then
you definitely need to continue reading! I hate to hear a woman use
that phrase: "you have to choose", or "why does he do this to me?" Why
do
we give
men that power? Why is it that we want for HIM
to choose us? When we give men this authority, then we are giving them
power over us. They know that they have our hearts in the palms of their
hands, and they are free to toy with, squish, and otherwise maim it in
anyway possible. And by giving them that power over our lives, they know
that we are unwilling to let go. This is why we want them to choose,
because we allow ourselves to feel
powerless in situations where we should feel
powerful.
The Bible says that a MAN that finds a WIFE finds a good thing. Do
you understand the power that God gives woman in that simple phrase? A
woman is a prize! She is worthy of respect, and by giving our power to a
man, we only disrespect ourselves...
Which brings me to my next point. It's ALL ABOUT RESPECT. If
YOU don't respect you, then don't expect for HIM to respect you. However, it's important to understand that a woman should be RESPECTABLE! If you are in the club every weekend with a bottle in your mouth, yelling "turn up", and otherwise being RATCHET, then you aren't exhibiting behaviors of a woman that deserves respect. But even the most respectable women run into some disrespectful men, and I don't care how long you've supported him, how long you've "had his back", no matter how many babies you have by him, it comes down to this: He
either respects you, or he doesn't. And if he can not respect you as his
lover, his friend, his confident, his child's mother, than you can't
MAKE him do it. If he refuses to give you the respect that you
rightfully deserve, then MOVE AROUND! Screw it, because this old adage
is true: A man will only do what a woman
LET'S him do. If your
man treats you like dirt, tell homie to eat rocks! Nothing gets a man's
respect like saying "F... You", and meaning it. Nothing moves a man to action more quickly than knowing that his woman has moved on WITHOUT HIM. If he really loves you, he will do what it takes to be the man in your life. If he doesn't, then he wasn't
sh** , anyway, and you are better off without him!
How
can I say this? Because I have been through it! My husband and I were
back and forth, off and on, for years. And it probably would have stayed
that way, if I didn't put my foot down. I remember one evening, we had
a little
rendezvous, and afterward, this fool felt that he was ballsy
enough to tell me that he had a new girlfriend.
Huh, do what, now? Whatchu just say?
At that point, I knew that I had enough. I didn't curse him out. Nope,
not at all. However, I remember telling him that when he walked out of
my front door, he would not be walking back through it. He thought that I
was playing, but I was oh, so serious. At that time, we had one child
together. After he walked out my front door, I kept my word. There were
no "booty calls". There was no coming over to see the kid.
Hell, you want him, come and pick him up or I can drop him off--I don't
need you being under me! If it had nothing to do with our child,
then we
had no conversation. Why should we? Friends would have treated one
another better than he treated me, so I didn't see the need for
unnecessary conversation. He did his thing, and I did mine. I took a
vacation, and took that opportunity to renew myself. I came back home
with my son, happy and refreshed, because I had begun to reevalute my
life. I realized that it wasn't him that was making me unhappy; I had
more unresolved issues that I needed to contend with. But allowing him
to come in and out of my life wasn't lending itself to making me happy,
either, so I truly let go. I dealt with my issues, and allowed him to
live the life that he wanted to live, and then...
He
realized that once he had what he wanted, he didn't want what he had.
He realized that what he had was a young girl, and what he needed was a
woman. And I was that woman. I was strong, independent, and I had his
back at all times. I loved his children from his previous relationships,
and what shocked him was that even when we were no longer together, his
children still loved and confided in me. I was truly his "ride-or-die
chick". But I had to let him go, allow him to live "in that moment", so
that he could see what was really right before him all along. I did not
want to force what I wanted as my "reality" to be his "reality". After
almost a year, I received a call late one night. I had no idea who it
could be; the number wasn't familiar to me (he would still see his
child, however, conversation between us was very limited). "Hello" I
answered. "Hey" was his response, followed by "do you mind if I call,
just to talk?" Now looky there...I took that power away from him when I
stood by my word! The choice was not his, it was all mine! We talked
for quite awhile, and when met to talk face-to-face again, I was looking
at a completely different person. He didn't just look at me, but he SAW
me. He respected me. He LOVED me. He LISTENED to me. And I could tell
the difference, and it wasn't because of anything he said or did. When a
person's heart truly changes, you can see the difference illuminating
them from within. Even when I spoke, he hung on every word. Even the way
that he touched me, the way that he held me, everything was different.
He was a different man, not because he HAD to be, but because he wanted to be a BETTER man. And that's what he
did. We've been married now almost 4 years.
When
you've given it your all, and your all just isn't enough, then it's time
to let go. Stop giving him power over you! You deserve better in this
life, but it's up to you to seek out your "better". Live your life
being the best person that you can be, and the rest will fall into
place. We have to stop chasing men that don't want to be caught, loving
men that can't love us, respecting men that find joy in disrespecting
us. Life is TOO SHORT! Slowly inhale. Exhale. Then. Just. Let. Go...
Attorney Michael Avenatti, through research and investigation, reveals that a new sextape of Robert Kelly, aka "R. Kelly" involved in sex acts with a 14 year old girl has been turned over to Cook County State’s Attorney’s Office in Chicago. The video was turned over to Avenatti by a "whistleblower" who is allegedly very familiar with R Kelly and the young woman in the video.
